Hi ya'll

i know i've been away for a while, but i decided to check back in with you.
it's hard to put in to words all that's going on in my life right now. although it is mostly an internal thing...lots of spiritual and emotional and physical transition going on.
as for blogging, i think i was beginning to get too carried away with approval.
i maybe didn't show it much, but there was always a struggle between writing about the stuff bloggers wanna read about, or just have an honest expression of who i am.
i know what it should be..but if bloggers are honest, we all consider our readers when typing away.

Anyway, I hosted a baby shower on saturday. It was at a local golf course. I was running around like a chicken with no head. LOL. For 48 hrs b4 the shower I was doing favors, I did about 50 of them. Filled them with candy, wrapped the tulle, tied ribbons and a tag on each one. Then I cooked italian meatballs...(which a guy later told me were "wacking"...it's a good thing) and I made a beef, tomato and cheese taco dip, I made 48 cupcakes (for a game) 4 of them had plastic babies in them. Those four people won a prize. I filled up a big baby bottle with gumballs..for a guess how many gumballs contest....hmm...among other things. I got to the place early to decorate and so on...lol, i had on high heels moving tables and chairs and putting up banners and the like...then after all that I ran the shower, the ice breaker, the games and so on. I was tired after that. My calves and my thighs have not yet recovered...ugh! I was rubbing them down with that pain reliever stuff last night.
But it was all so worth it, when my girl hugged me and thanked me...And several of the attendees (that I didn't know) told me that I did a wonderful job. :)

on another note,i'm starving. i couldn't figure out what i was feeling when i woke up...but after a series of elimination, i figured it's hunger that i'm experiencing. normally, i'd be at the gym by now, but this hunger was so crippling i had to wait. i'm not a big breakfast eater, but i think yogurt might trick my body into thinking i actually ate. maybe a carnation instant (yuck) breakfast. i have some downstairs and it'll definitely make this feeling go away...hmmm...
ne way, today at my gym is the weigh in for a 6 week weight loss challenge. so I entered the joint. there are 3 pots of money up for grabs, and I totally intend on grabbing one (lol)
the weigh back is May 22...so I'll let u know what's up.

i'm actually very excited about EASTER or as i like to call it, Resurrection Day...
which by the way, why is it that only christian holy days have been turned into, like, national days of fun?? santa claus and toys, easter bunny and candy....*smh*
any who...moving on.
i'm excited. i love the season. the reminder that Jesus was so devoted to me that he purposely died at calvary. (oh boy there goes the readers...lol) but honestly, i am grateful, and i am challenged about my devotion to HIM.

i haven't sung in the choir for a while, until recently. i recommited and have been singing ever since. i think naturally, i'm a leader and a soloist. BUT, i'm not pushy (altho i can be) i'm really careful about that, especially because i'm the pastor's daughter. so i just fall back...do my part and chill. well, a few sundays ago i was in the congregation. singing during communion. (everybody sings) and a lady from the choir was in front of me. after service she grabbed me and said after hearing me, she had a song she wanted me to sing on Easter. i thought that was nice of her to ask me. when you sing...you always want to. i mean, i love every opportunity i'm given. but i learned that i don't have to force any one to notice me...that promotion and noteriety really comes from God. i guess it's a small example, but never the less.

i have a praise report!!!! my nephew Jeremiah is home!!!! yippie!! Christopher isn't home yet, but he is out of the isolette and gaining weight. He's on his way out too...just thought i'd share. I heard Jeremiah drinking his bottle over the phone and i just cried. lol. small victories.i know it sounds corny, but i count my blessings. :)

well i guess that's about all....
love ya'll and i'll catch up wit u again real soon!