Monday, November 21, 2005

So much going on...

Well, here I am...yes, yes, yes...take your seats ladies and gents....
Oh! the applause is too much..really!
*wishful thinking...lol...humor me. :)*
Anyway as I said there is a lot going on...and I am in need of a good blogging session. So here goes...

CSI Next Door?!?
*inquiring (preferred over nosy...plus this is serious) neighbor listens through the door...

officer:so did you know his friends very well?
lady: well * was distanced from me, I'm his mom and he kinda kept things from me.
officer:did he work?
victim's mother: no, he recieved disability and ss
officer: of about how much?
victim's mother: I think about $400 each
officer: do you know how much he was paying for this apartment
victim's mother: no
officer: was he into anything illegal?
victim's mother: honestly, * knew that I did not approve of his lifestyle. So he respected my home and kept what he did in the streests in the streets.
victim's mother: we want to see him!
officer: there is no way they are gonna let you see him
victim's mother: he's still here?
officer: they are investigating the crime scene...


No this is not a playback from CSI Miami, rather an excerpt from my so called life. Last thurday morning my 26yr old next door neighbor was found shot dead with multiple gunshot wounds to his body in his apartment. He had been missing for just about 2 days. @ 2am the cops came knocking at our front door...we answered a few questions and they left. But I couldn't sleep, so I watched and listened...it looked like CSI...as I watched through the peep hole...camera's flashing, cops in and out, white gloves, a body bag. It's crazy, and I'm officially traumatized. His murder wasn't a random act...but it happening so close has got me shaken. So please pray for us, and that I get another gig and a place to live.

Ahh...just us girlz
After all that, I went home to jerzey. My girl turned 30 on friday. So I got up @ 6am got my kids together and drove to jersey to get there in time to drop the kids off with their gramma, and get my girls to head over to the spa by 11am. we all had 50 minute sweedish massages that woulda made me slap somebody...if I wasn't so dag on relaxed and sedated..lol
We went to eat, went shopping, and to Atlantic City later that night.
We checked out Jay-Z's 40/40 club, which was pretty...but definitely NOT what we were looking for or expected. The local crowd was kinda strange..since there is no cover charge..there were some weirdos n there. (Dan...dood skooting around the club had me falling out in laughter!) Still it was nice being with each other, minus having to scream to hear each other talk and spending $100 on 3 appetizers and 4 drinks...but I digress.
You live and you learn..and I don't think we'll go there again, but our curiosity is quenched. I spent the entire weekend with Trina..from the spa Friday morning...to working saturday night...and being KNOCKED OUT sunday..lol
I am so blessed to have her as a friend...her and Dan...and Carla made my weekend off the hook.(thanx ya'll) I know she had a wonderful 30th B-day weekend. (what u think u grown??)

*oh ya'll we got a date to see the Color Purple next month...mark ur calenders!

Still

I've mentioned J a few times on my blog...
For those who don't remember...refer back to my post a LOVE just for me (August). I still love him so much. Not that true love wears out, but it is something to me. We don't see each other or talk much at all. There is no angst between us. He is deep in my heart.
It's just like...that thing you don't talk about, that just is. I'm not acting on it, not telling him too much, it's just there. When I wake up, when I'm not thinking of it, when I'm talking to other men...
I've accepted that he and I most likely won't ever be together again, but still...

I have a sweet tooth, but who needs candy?
I love my babies so much!They are just like little cupcakes!
I could just eat them up...it's something. I remember after my twins were born...I had a natural motherly affection for them, but nothing more. I was depressed a lot, and went through so much. Including, being left, and homeless for a few months. I had no joy. I began praying for a deeper love and compassion for my children.
I can happily and truly say that today I adore my children. I could put some whipped cream and spinkles on them and eat them up!!
I love looking at them, laughing with them, teaching them, watching them learn, taking them out, playing games with them, holding them, kissing them, watching them grow...
I used to hate to hear what people would say about my age...and my number of children. But you know what? Who cares! My children are little "baked" blessings sent from above...lol
Thank you Lord for seeing fit to send them through me. For confiding trust in me, that I could properly mother them...even knowing that I'd be alone. Lord if you never give me anything else...another child, a husband, a bigger house, a better job...you've given me more then enough in Elijah, Micah, Amayah, and Jonah!

Thanxgiving
I always tell u people the things I am grateful for...but since this is the official time of year to express these feelings lemme share what I am so thankful for:

  • music,songs, and singing
  • tears
  • D'angelo...lol
  • warmth
  • technology
  • changing seasons
  • health, and life
  • literacy, and expression
  • church
  • money and a banging job @ home
  • something to drive
  • somewhere to live
  • fun,laughs,smiles
  • good food
  • diets...lol...kinda
  • being so dag on fiine! (lol)
  • growth
  • healing
  • love, kisses, and hugs
  • all things soft, pink, and girly
  • my hellokitty email address (chanichew@hellokitty.com )
  • memories
  • soft slippers n robes
  • bubble baths
  • being invited to Leon's party...uhoh!
  • hot chocolate with whipped cream
  • good books
  • candles
  • precious scents
  • eye candy...(landscapes,colors,animals, babies, and men)
  • the mall,shopping! shoes!clothes!
  • diamonds,rubies, n colapop (lol)
  • my family
  • my friends
  • get togethers
  • my kids
  • salvation,God's word
  • my relationship with the Lord
  • joy, contentment, and happiness
  • victory
  • YOU!

Be blessed ya'll....whew! this was a long one huh? Told u I had a lot to say..hehehe

MWWAAAHH!


14 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey girlie... I soooo envy your spa-weekend!!!!! I'ma have to hook me up an experience like that soon... I'm sorry to hear 'bout your neighbor... may God's peace rest in your heart.. praying with you for your new home;).

Fresh said...

Enjoy your holiday :-)

Friar Tuck said...

I hope things are a little safer where you live soon.

TrinaBeingTrina said...

I can't wait until you can move. I know how much you hate being there, but I know it will work out.

The weekend was the BOMB!! I appreciated everything sooo much. It was the best.

I know you might be tired of me but I can't wait to see you this week. We have to get ready for Black Friday.

As far as this dude goes, I don't really understand what is going on with yall. I know you explained it to me, but I still don't really get it.

courtney said...

Happy early THanksgiving... :)

Anonymous said...

happy thanksgiving chica. your babies are so big now! i miss you and we must get up on my next visit. have a good one and be safe.

Anonymous said...

by the way tara = anonymous

princessdominique said...

Girl you are so pretty and I didn't know that Hello Kitty had email addresses. Guess who's gotta get one now...geez.

M-Dubb said...

That was hot... I love the fact that I'm not the only nosy negro out there... lol

Nice blog

Unknown said...

sounds like you had a ball in Atlantic City!

Brotha Buck said...

Wow, you had much to say today. I can feel ya on the subject of children. I love my children, and my son seems to affect a part of me that I didn't even know existed. I can't even get mad at him when he stomps pink Play Doe all over my art studio.

Your pic: you should be a model, although, I don't know, maybe you are.

feels good b n FREE said...

@latinchik...hey girl, glad i could help
@cream...u betta get to the spa girl! n thanx 4 ur prayers.
@berry...i'm enjoying, u do the same!
@don juan...thanx for u well wishes! ur comments mean a lot
@trina...glad we got to spend ur bday together,so glad u enjoyed, so glad u care, so glad ur my gurl!'til death do us part ma...watch n see.
@courtneyelizabeth...thanx, it was wonderful..i hope ur was too...come bak k?
@anon(Tara)...i'm so glad u still check in wi me, i miss u too//make sure u hit me up when u r back in town, i'ma email u wit the number...i think u have the old one.
@princessdom...awh! don't ever have me blushing on this side of the pc...lol. wow! thanx for such a sweet compliment. and i'm glad that i could let u in on the hello kitty email thing...look @ that...the student inspiring the teacher..lol
@m-dubb...don't u mean inquiring negro??lol. glad u liked it, glad u came thru...please come back. :)
@tamiko...hey girl..ur words really encouraged me! thank u for commenting...u never know what kind of good ur comment can do! i'm glad u r still reading and i'll come thru and try to help u out, altho i'm no expert. :)
@stunner...yeah AC was kool...but I could be just about n e where...as long as i was with my girlz...we'd make it a ball! :)
thanx 4 commenting
@brothabuck...it is something, that love that is uncovered when we have offspring...it's amazing.

YOUR PIC COMMENT: omg! your comment has to be by far my favorite..lol...and is there any question why? Your compliment was very sweet and flattering...while these pics I post on the web r the closest i'll get to modeling,with people like u out there...that's just about all a girl needs..lol
Thanx! i was getting a headache cause i couldn't stop smiling and my dimple is stuck...lol
u r tha best..lol

why do i luv u people so much??

Icey said...

CSI huh? Will the complex let you move? Praying for you

Good girlfriends are hard to come by! Lucky you have yours and that yall had a great time!

chase said...

wow that was a long one, I couldn't help giggleing thinking about you trying to get a good look thru the keyhole (been there girl, been there....)

so happy to see how much you value your children, they are sweet...

lots to be thankful for.