Life stuff

So the gospel cafe @ my church just passed...and it was beautiful. I mean, it was just like I imagined...well almost anyway. but we had a great time and it gave us a visual for the things to come. i was able to do a few numbers on the M-I-C. (lol) My brother did a few of his spoken word poems, and like always...they amazed me. He is so talented. I got to hear a few other people get free with their talents that we didn't know they had...and that was hott.The next one is March 9th...and I'm excited about that too. God is a good God and I love that He doesn't stay in a box...He allows us to lift Him up in so many different wayz.
On another note...I met this man a few days back. As soon as I walked in the building I spotted him...more than likely it was his stature tho. He was very tall...maybe 6' 5"...probably about 300lbs. Caramel complexion...seemed quiet enough. Without ever directly acknowleding one another, we were both very aware of each other. Turns out he's a friend of mines brother. hmmm..
He's single, 30 something, and saved. He writes music and sings like...some kind of angel. My instinct is to think about it a little more... to flirt and all that kind of thing. Oh let me back track a little...After our first encounter, we saw each other 3 additional times, the second time we sat down and talked for about 10 minutes and then the last we hugged and kept it moving. I know he knows I'm feeling him. I feel the need to let it go, to notice him...but not try to make him mine. ya dig?
If this was 2006...(lol) I'd definitely try to pursue him, but I'm feeling more like I need to just fall back and if say, God has him in mind for me...He'll come after me. I know that's the thing to do...but to pull back and refocus on other things is sometimes difficult...especially cause when he comes around...I tend to get distracted. Oh and I sense a bit of interest from him too...He initiated all of our conversations, told me he has a song he wants me to sing, plays with my kids, and said that he would come to my groups rehearsals on the weekend even tho he is committed to being elsewhere. :)
But anyway...I'm calming myself down. I tend to jump the gun a bit. I told u b4, it's kool being single. I used to wait for my phone to ring. Now I'm so trife...I screen EVERY phone call...and got the nerve to get an attitude if my phone rings too much...or too little. (so silly)
I had been talkin to a local "celebrity" also. I actually contacted him...just in a joking kinda way. My email was titled "you might as well marry me." lol. well wouldn't u know, it must have amused him...because we have been going back and forth since..and that was a few months back. He actually read my email on the "air" lmbo. who'da thunk it? We had emailed back and forth several times. I was getting tired of the cat and mouse and left him my number 2x and ultimately said 4get it. So he called me the last 2 weekends in a row. We spoke 2x and had a decent convo.
I didn't know what to make of it. He does a show in philly and chicago. I know women come at him all the time and that originally had me to the point of "nevermind, I don't care." But then he called me...I guess it's not a big deal. He said that we should go to a "show" next weekend. I don't know what to do. I definitely am not interested in being one of his groupies...but I don't wanna just cut off my nose to spite my face. I mean, how do I even know that he's really interested?
That's why I'ma just let it be. Que sera' sera'...because that's where my trust in God comes into play. ya know? If I believe that He's got all this under control, and that He will order my steps...ain't no need in my trying to manipulate anything. (and manipulation is definitely in my nature...just being real)
I'ma let go and let God and see what's the end gon' be...lol (i'm so church-a-fied) lol.