Thursday, March 09, 2006

because

it's because i love you so much...
that's the reason why i can let my heart and my body wonder
back to you.
because you were mine and i was yours
first.
because it isn't fair that we are over.
because all i did was love you.
maybe i was young, nieve, maybe i wanted too much...
but i loved you never the less, blindly.
i fought through so much.
but surely it's because i love you so much
that i can't think of you being happily ever after with anyone else.
although deep inside i believe it is inevitable.

change? a curse word to you.
why? because u think somehow it makes u less of a man.
that i'm tryna change YOU.
but no. because i love you...
i wanna see YOU be the best possible YOU.
i see so much good...so much potential in you.
good that the enemy has tried repeatedly
to corrupt, taint, pervert and ultimately destroy.
you do know that is what he wants...
the enemy of your soul.
but i love you and God loves you.
all i ever wanted was to see you be the man that you can be.
i remember the past
and even some of the present
and it hurts me...
deep deep down in my soul.
my heart is so damaged, deeply scarred.
because i've loved you so much...

that is why now it can't be anything without a divine touch from God.
without change.

where ever you are tonight i pray that you are safe.
i pray that God is speaking audibly to you.
i hope something reminds you that you know what it is to be truly loved.
i pray that in this life you reach your potential.

this is my prayer...because i love you
*this is a letter i wrote to a man who wants to put "us" back together...
it moved me enuf to wanna share.
ttyl

12 comments:

Unknown said...

Nice!

Ms.Honey said...

There's so much that can be said from that....good post.

latinachik4lif said...

damz, datz a good way 2 express urself, i hope thingz r goin aight, smoochez

sweetness said...

oh my gosh that hit truly hit home. as far as me and my daughter's father. it's like u took the words right out of my mouth. we offically broke up in in oct of 2005. we both couldn't take the anger, bitterness, and dissappointment i had towards him any longer.
how are thing with u and the guy?

All-Mi-T [Thought Crime] Rawdawgbuffalo said...

nice as usual hon

nosthegametoo said...

Wonderful expression.

Friar Tuck said...

i love your heart

Ladynay said...

me 3! :-)

TrinaBeingTrina said...

That was deep baby girl.It really sux to love someone who is a complete idiot.The problem is you love him but he doesn't love himself.

Casey said...

Your talented..

God Bless

feels good b n FREE said...

@everyone...thank u so much for your kind words...
just an expression...it really is a letter i wrote, i just thought it sounded poetic..lol

luv ya'll

MZPEACH said...

Stop it stop it stop it. They ain't ready Chan. Girl you laying it all out there? :)