Tuesday, February 03, 2009

About me

Not sure why I worry
or sure why I cry
Not sure of what will happen tomorrow
or when I'm gonna die.

Not sure of so many things
of who will stay or leave
Not sure why things exist
or why they come to be.

I guess all that I'm sure of
is that more than anything else
I wanna have meaning
beyond what aesthetics can tell.

I want my tears to matter
and my efforts to count
I'm not sure the number
but my life has to amount

to something bigger than me
something that lasts long
or should I say for someone
eternal, like a Beetles song

I want the butterflies in my stomach
to get out and fly away
I want the sun to come
I want to treasure my life TODAY

I want to have the words
for things that leave me speechless
I want to reach into every soul
I encounter and leave them blessed

I wish I could teach ethics
integrity and love
racial sensitivity and harmony
unity that springs from above

I want to hold peace and calm
joy and certainty in my bosom
I wanna be pregnant with generosity
like a flower waiting to blossom

I want to be inspiration
that urges positive movement
like music blowing in the breezes
making the trees do the watusi

Sometimes I feel nervous
and I can't explain why
Sometimes I walk in the church
and just start to cry

I feel the need to worship
like I grew out of the earth
like I've been here since creation
and remember being dirt

I never want the people
I love to have a doubt
about how much I love them
and what true love is all about

I wish I could paint my life
if I could it would be pretty
a canvas full of colors and designs
with mirrored reflections of me

My life could be a scrapbook
with cutouts and photographs
beautiful words and artistic phrases
enchanting memories that would last

I get afraid at night
when I'm alone in my bed
I'm supposed to be the grown up
but I still want to be protected

I pray alot
I love using words to write
and I wanna open my mouth
and sing songs that change lives

I want to live, laugh and love
I want him to adore me
I want to walk in my purpose…


I want to live beautifully!